Tuesday, May 08, 2007


I'm not a perfect person
posted @ 13:21 by ryan in [ From the sage... ]

no one is, really.

most of us get a good idea of what our faults are over time, either by making mistakes and examining them or by being told, not listening and then making mistakes and examining them.

There're many things I wish I didn't do, but would I have become a better person by not doing them? Would I have learned the same lessons? not sure about that. But I continue learning, where I get aggravated is when I (or others) repeat the same mistake - as lorie can attest, however, I do make many mistakes over and over - but that's different. I think.

maybe not.

I could say I regret my past decisions, telling people "I never meant to do those things to you" but really - I'm not so sure that I do regret. I wouldn't be where I am today - how do I know if one little change wouldn't change my life for the worse. It's all really moot anyway, because we can't change the past, so why continue to let it bother me? just accept that you need to adjust for the future and move on.

And so I have to say before I go that even though I don't regret my past decisions, I do apologize for them when I've hurt some one, be it accidentally or willfully. Another thing that I just want you to know is that I will continue to make mistakes, but we learn from them...

isn't it amazing how changes in life don't seem to happen gradually, but many times, instantly? Major paradigm shifts in your life open up the different facets to a person... highschool, college, significant others... I found a reason for me to change who I used to be during my college years - instead of the guy that was completely and utterly selfish and unfaithful (in many different ways) - I became...

um...

less selfish, and not unfaithful.

:-P

some people, they tend not to change, given that they don't have a reason to start over new... whether it be lack of focus or vision, ambition or luck, or just self-doubt or no one to give them that little boost of confidence.

I have been blessed that I have had many different people to kick me in the pants when I was down on myself, or full of myself rather.

and the reason is you


... ... ...

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you


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