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so... I'm a little nervous right now, because I'm not sure if I'm still going to houston...

long story short - there was some misunderstanding with my role and I'm not sure that I should or if I even want to tole anymore.

pro - I won't have to fly to texas every week
pro - I could potentially be unstaffed for a while until I find another project (meaning, paid to not do anything)
pro - I could possibly even hang out with lorie
pro - I could potentially be unstaffed for a while until I find another project (meaning, paid to not do anything)
pro - I will finally have time to do things in and around the house without having to balance trying to see everyone on the weekends

con - being unstaffed doesn't look good during review time
con - I would have to find another project - which can be a huge pain in the ass
con - I might have to go into the home office once in a while (but I'm going to avoid that as much as possible)
con - I feel bad because they are desperate for staff (but it just might not be a good fit)
con - I won't be able to go to lot 8 to get something for lorie from chloe (... sad... on many different levels)

so yeah - I'm nervous because I'm done with my current project this week - I want to know what my advisor is going to say, but he's busy until later tonight... and I just hate uncertainty...

bottom line - I don't think I want this project right now.

[updated]

not nervous anymore... my advisor just reassured me that I should take the role. he didn't use a manipulative tone or anything like that so I guess I have trust that he's trying to help me out...

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bittersweet...
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I guess I'm going to houston next week...

no more 4 day work weeks... 4 in houston, 1 at home... at least I can work from home... not like I do much on friday anyway.

at least I can probably work 8 or 9 hour days now... instead of having to kill myself to get 11 or 12 to justify my charging in 40 hours a week when not working on friday.

we'll see how that goes.