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have you ever tried to contemplate genius? being in the presence of someone when tey figure something out that you have absolutely no clue how they are thinking about it and then watch them give you a solution that was just complete way over your head that it was like it was almost magic.

what truly amazes me are those that are truly gifted in some way - how they can look at something, understand it down to the core without ever having seen it before, and mastering it better than even the person who created it... as if whatever that something was, was created specifically for that person to use it.

don't get me wrong, I have a great respect for those who have toiled and strived to become masters in whatever it is they do. Many times the effort put into learning an ability surpasses that of the natural talent. I've heard the story many times (or imagined that I heard it)... the phenomenon burns out, wastes talent... I'd blame that on lack of guidance (and not necesarily on the phenom - although there is some culpability there still)

but I'm sure there is some rhyme and reason about why things are they way they are, if only to show that slow and steady will win the race (probably something like a marathon or a tri and not a sprint)...

so, since life is a marathon, knuckle down, buster.

still, I am guilty of many sins, but I am grieviously weak with envy... I look at other people and imagine - man, I wish I could do that, or be like that, or have that... In my mind I imagine people look at me and think the same thing and I am flattered yet disappointed, because outward appearances are never what they seem... then I imagine that there has to be some type of strife or turmoil in that person's life and some how my life doesn't suck even remotely as much as I thought it did... seriously though, if you were given everything you ever wanted, then would you appreciated any of it? especially if it just came to you with no effort?

yeah, right - you'd be so bored. basically, I'm trying to get to the point so that I can say, if I need this, I want it to be availble to me.

of course there are many things that I probably desire that I don't need... and the things that I wanted, I got, and now never use... you life just get's bogged down with all this stuff and you don't know what to do with it. it just takes up space.

let's think about it, what would I need in a home to be comfortable, with no uber-excess (perishables and utility items aside)... fully and completely loaded laptop, printer, a good couch, a tv, dvd player/recorder, dvr, cable and broadband, wireless, medium frying pan, medium pot, cookie sheet, roasting pan, oven, stove, fridge/freezer, two spatulas (rubber and cooking), large spoons (slotted and non-slotted), mixing bowl, scissors, can/bottle opener, measuring cups/spoons, chopping board, knives (santoku, chef, utility, pairing), a good bed, pillows, dresser, sheets, vacuum, mop, broom, dust pan, duster, towels (bath, kitchen, cleaning), 2 dinner sets (plates, bowls, silverware, glasses, cups), fully and completely loaded tool set, cell phone, charger, toothbrush, various lamps/lights, at least 500 sq ft, powercords, power strips... and probably a number of other things that I can't think of right now, but basically stuff like that to minimize my needs and to be relatively comfortable... although I probably won't be entertaining many people.

if my life starts going down hill, i am going to look for sponsors and be the dude that never leaves his house and has camera's everywhere so I don't have any privacy except for when I use the bathroom... of course I'd probably try to get them to build a house that I never want to leave... also, going to church will be a problem, although I could always have mass at my house...

well, now I'm just dreaming... I'll probably post this later, so no one will really read it... at least. that's the plan.