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so...

here's the thing...

I like to karaoke. no big deal, lots of people do.

the problem is, if I could - I can probably sing all night - because I like to sing (even though I know I'm not a great singer), because I like the songs, and its just damn fun - but it is different when it is in front of people, especially people you don't know all that well...

maybe it's shyness, maybe it's because you don't know what song to pick because nothing is worse than no one really getting into what you are singing when you are probably going to go all out to sing it, maybe it's because you know deep down that once you break that ice, you are diving straight down to the bottom and anchoring yourself there (and maybe you don't want to put people through that)

when it's at someone's house, the mic is like a joint you pass around... everyone gets a puff and then gives it to the next person... sometimes, some people don't want to toke as much, and others seems to want to smoke it all...

but it's different when people are forcing you... there is just more pressure, more expectation, more people paying closer attention...

that's not fun...

it's got to be organic...

it's got to be from within...

it's like someone saying "do something funny" there is no context, no target audience, nothing... it is the same reason why it is so hard for musicals to be good - because if someone starts singing and dancing in the middle of a conversation, it's got to seem natural...

imagine - being at work, in a meeting, and then spontaneously bursting in to song. (which is why "Once More with Feeling" was so funny, because it worked so well...)

of course... I bust out into song if I am comfortable with the crowd based on whatever words are said at any point...

that is also directly proportionaly to the amount of alcohol I've imbibed...

for while the true Grail will bring you life, the false Grail will take it from you...