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I've been reading many of my past posts lately... it's sad to see that over the course of time, I have noticed that I have very little to say about anything that happens outside of my own sphere of influence.

my... isn't that just lovely...

[read:self-centered]

In any case it's not about what I want you to know about me but more what I want to know about me... or more generally what I want to know...

I don't talk about politics because honestly I'm not nearly ambitious enough do more than vote and tell others why I think that sometimes their reason for voting is good or silly... or articulate and defend why I believe in smaller government and why people should be able to manage more of their own money than they currently do...

I don't talk about religion, because although I say I am a devout Catholic, I'm sorry to say that I have not studied apologetics. I could not intelligently debate with you about whether or not there was a break in the line of popes leading to a full apostasy of the Church or when Jesus said about His Church, "...and the gates of the netherworld shall not prevail against it" MT6:18 also meant His earthly church and not just His heavenly one... or explain clearly why Chruch tradition is important or why sanctifying grace alone justifies... I could tell you the difference I feel before and after confession... but it's like describing a vacation to somone who wasn't there.

I'd like to talk about movies, comic books, and video games, but it just takes to much time, I sound too much like a geek, and only a handful of my friends would be interested...

I don't talk about sports because frankly scarlett...

I don't talk about art, music, or love because talking about [them] is like dancing about architecture...

I don't talk about work, too much or too seriously, because on the off chance someone from work found this, I'd rather not have a record of my thoughts...

I'd probably talk about news if the news didn't talk about it so much...

I'd talk about poignant life moments or social commentary, but I haven't really been observing all that much lately and sometimes I feel like I'm prone to repeating myself...

apathy has rained on me, and now I'm feeling like a soggy dream. So close to drowning but I don't mind... I'm trapped inside this mental cage, throw my emotions in the grave (hell, who needs them anyway?)...

so, where do you go for your inspiration to write... usually I go around to other blogs to feel inspired - but that only works when people blog. of course, I haven't been roaming too far from what I have linked, so I'm sure there are other blogs of note out there... if you know of one or two or ten let me know... then maybe I can find others from whom I can bite some style...

in any case, maybe I would talk about the things I said I wouldn't talk about - I'm just afraid of the ensuing madness if the topic gets too sticky or touchy because the last thing I would want would be to lose friends and hurt feelings...

I love discussions, but people are to afraid to really discuss anything if it's not anonymous - I know I am, especially if I don't have the ammo to back up the opening volley... but I guess that's one way to learn... shoot first, ask questions later - that is, assuming I don't kill anything before it had the chance to grow into something worth discussing...

seriously... what would you say if I asked you why you picked the faith you did? Why am I Catholic? I'm Catholic not because I was raised Catholic. During college I probably went to Church only when it was convenient and usually only because I was home and my mother expected me to go, and I could not be remotely classified as faithful or devout... towards the end of college I started to question my faith and the Church and tried to see if I could find any reason to not believe. The internet being the big place that it is, has more than just objectionable material, it has information. The cool thing about a lot of the information is that someone was probably wondering the same things and posted it to share with everyone (isn't that nice?) so I tried to find everything out there that was against the Church and the bible and God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit... for everything one data point I found against the bible, I found three or four to support it. Many times, the sources which refute the existence of Jesus had no definitive or solid research on which to fall back. Then there is the arrogance of science thinking that it can find the answers to everything... but whatever...

why are you a republican... why are you a democrat... why don't you care about your government?

why do you only date people who share your ethnic heritage, religion, sexual preference.

why do you smoke. why do you drink alchohol.

why do we feel the need to be defined by those around us?

why do we or don't we care about what happens outside our zip code.

why do we care more about the business of other families while we ignore the business of our own...

why do we worry?

why do we put up or why are we stubborn?

apathy reigns supreme. in the land of the blind, the one-eyed man is king. a wink is as good as a nod to a blind man.

There is so much that could be discussed... and yet we do not because on the net, the world is your forum, and by putting yourself out there you leave yourself vunerable...

and no one likes that.

but hey...

I'm too busy to talk about it in depth...

my words don't do it (or anything) much justice...

and it is just easier to tell you what "happened" today or what I ate for breakfast and lunch...

...

I had a cheese danish and a grande caramel mocha...

so far (six hours later), the cheese danish is only 3/4 eaten...

and I'm still working on it.

my...

how lovely...