you know... there are those moments in life where you cringe when you live it, and you cringe everytime you relive it...
there are some things that a person must go through in order to understand why one must or must not do something or another.
no one is born with all of the knowledge of everything immediately at their disposal, it must be discovered through teachings and trials and errors...
so all those moments where I have been a complete ass, and then realized it later (trust me, I do realize it, and I do cringe when I think about it again) it just makes it that much easier to not do that same exact thing again.
some people just assume you know everything that they do (ahem, moi) so they take for granted that knowledge and actually expect that you are already on that same level. others just assume that everyone knows more than them so they lack the assertiveness one might consider necessary to facilitate learning and other such interaction. others just assume that they know more than everyone and then are overassertive, close-minded, overwhelming, and, sometimes, completely wrong.
I can't fault you for thinking that I am an insensitive idiot. In many cases, I am. All I can say in my defense is, the second I realize it, it will never happen again and I am all the better for it. But, if you hold that moment of stupidity against me, then you miss out on that which I can provide, and in turn, I miss out on what you can provide - and we all lose. Not just the two of us, but everyone - because that which we could create together can benefit everyone... Also, at least I am putting it out there. Although it can be frightening or silly or just plain dumb, I gain experience from my attempts. One learns much faster from applied practice than from reciting theory.
if you don't fall down, then you are not trying hard enough.
in order to succeed in the air, you must be able to succeed on the ground - you must walk first, you cannot jump into flying..
so I will continue to reminisce about those times that make me cringe, because it is good for me.
it keeps me in check.
you should pay no mind to doing something wrong the first time.
you should pay close attention to doing something wrong again and again.
apologies and
all...
All Apologies
What else should I be
All apologies
What else could I say
Everyone is gay
What else could I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
I'm married
Buried
I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezeburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married, Maried, Maried!
Buried!
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
All in all is all we are...
~Nirvana
