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there are people who are born leaders... the people who become the emperors, the emperors advisors, the generals, and the foot soldiers...

I think I could do any of those roles, and I think I could do them well... the problem that I have with that is that I don't think I care enough to have those roles. that fact alone would make me not a good whatever... I can follow for a while, because following is easy... but I get bored with that... I can lead for a while large or small... but I think I'm too much of a control freak and given the trust issues that I have, I don't like being too far from the action, so smaller groups are my preference and I like to know everything that is going on...

I'm probably more along the lines of a mercenary, mostly because I am selfishly concerned with myself and my immediate interests than I am having to think and deal with long term issues. planning is something I can do, but something for which I do not have the heard. and given the nature of a merc's work, the job is usually solo or with a small two to four man group.

well, that's how I romanticze it. the other thing that I know about myself... I can take something and give you great ideas about how to make it better, but coming up with the original idea - not my forte... I can see all the pieces and figure out how best they should go together... big picture and all that, but I'm not one to create the big picture. so in essence, you can say that I am very good at criticizing other people's work, tearing it apart and putting it back together, than I am in building from scratch.

original ideas are very hard to come by, and I hope one day that I can have one of my very own.

retention and regurgitation. I am very good at that. I can remember and I can recite. I can even ad-lib a little.

I greatly appreciate others' abilities to be able to create, almost to the point of jealousy...

but not all of us are originators... I am more of an improvisor - not an innovator... macgyver versus edison

you can say that I'm a dreamer... but I'm not the only one.