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To start. But only because I cannot put everything all down all at the same time. But here I am.

I am pro-life and that being pro-choice is just another way to say that you believe that you do not have to be responsible for your actons. I believe that men and women objectify themselves and each other and that it is only getting worse. I believe that life begins at conception and that the purpose of life is to create life. I believe that the first right is the right to life - which supercedes all other rights, and that no one should be able to deprive another of LIFE, liberty, or the pursuit of happiness. I believe that rape and incest are abhorrent, but that life is life, no matter how it is made - and life should be protected.

I believe in smaller government, lower taxes, family values, national defense. I do not believe that the government knows how to handle money. I believe that elected officials become beholden to their contributors and that it leads to further waste through pork barrel projects and do-nothing sessions of Congress. I believe that elections shouldn't be about raising money. I believe that elected officials should not be in it for the money and that their salaries should reflect that. Until elected officials are free from constantly having to raise money and return favors, they cannot legislate objectively and according to the people whom they represent. I believe they should be public SERVANTS. Their positions should be much, much more noble than what they have become. I believe that the people should dictate what legislative representatives persue and no money.

I believe that the goverment is run by MAN and thus I believe that no form of government will be without its problems. I believe that you will never make everyone happy. I do not believe in communism because I believe that everyone should have a voice. I do not believe in socialism because I believe that it only promotes laziness. I do not fully trust capitalism, but I do not know if there is a viable alternative. I believe that if we can change the paradigm so that we only work for the betterment of humanity and not for the pursuit of money, that we can achieve a balanced society.

I believe that one should vote however they feel, using whatever moral and ethical foundation you agree with. I believe that laws should be written to protect but not hinder what is morally and ethically sound. I believe that the government should serve the people, not themselves.

I do not believe that the minority should be able to dictate the majority because the minority doesn't think it is fair. I do not think that that majority should neglect the minority, but should not make major sacrifices because of the minority.

I do not believe that the US should give up it sovereignty just to save face on the international stage. I believe that the citizens of this country should step up and be worthy of the power which the US weilds and use that power justly and for the sake of our nation. I believe that we as a nation should finish what we start, regardless of the reasons for starting it. Leaving things in the middle make a mess and will inevitablely make things worse.

I do not believe in gun control. I believe that if guns are outlawed, then only criminals will have them. I believe that responsible, legal gun owners are vital for the safety and security of the country, and that should it be necessary, it will be the responsible citizens and gun owners that will revolt should the government over reach their station.

I do not believe in global warming. I do not believe that we can predict cycles of major weathers based on a millenia of suspect data. In the whole scheme of things, 1000 years is nothing compared the the billions of years of the planet.

I do not believe that creationism and evolution are mutually exclusive.

I believe that people should be able to do what they want BUT I hope they do what is morally and ethically right, and not what is selfish.

REGARDLESS of what they do, I believe they need to be accountable for the actions to which they have commited themselves.

I believe that people do not listen to what they don't want to and that they want to be able to do whatever they want without having to pay - without having to suffer the consequences.

I believe that the media is self-serving and ultimately will create self-fulfilling prophecies. The media is no longer about TRUTH but about making MONEY. I believe that it should be about the truth - without agenda or prejudice.

I believe that evil exists so that kindness and goodness can exist. I believe that love can only be appreciated through witnessing hate, and that faith can only shine when there is doubt. I also believe that doubt can sometimes bring you to faith.

I believe that I am no better than anyone, but I also believe that I will not agree with everyone which might be perceived that I believe that I think I am better. I believe that I can disagree with you and still respect you, that I can listen to you and share my thoughts without confrontation. I believe that I admire passion, but I believe that I can be upset by that with which I disagree. I believe that I will follow what I believe.

I believe that there is more to this life than material needs. I believe that life should be lived as close to Heaven as possible. To be one with LOVE.

I believe that I am a sinner. I believe that I am weak that only through FAITH and PRAYER and through GOD will I be able to live.

I believe in one God, the Father Almighty, maker of heaven and earth, and of all things seen and unseen. I believe in one Lord Jesus Christ, the only Son of God, eternally begotten from the Father. God from God, light from light, true God from true God. Begotten not made, one in being with the Father, through Him all things were made. For us men and for our salvation, He came down from heaven. By the power of the Holy Spirit He was born of the Virgin Mary and becamse man; He was crucified under Pontius Pilate, suffered, died, and was buried; On the third day rose again in fulfilment of the Scriptures. He ascended into heaven, seated at the right hand of the Father, He shall come again in glory to judge the living and the dead, whose Kingdom will have no end. I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Lord and Giver of life, who proceeds from the Father and the Son, With the Father and the Son He is worshipped and glorified, He has spoken through the Prophets. I believe in one holy, catholic, and apostolic Church. I acknowledge one baptism for the forgiveness of sins. And look for the resurrection of the dead and the life of the world to come.

I believe that I am done... for the moment...

One... two... whatever... we've all been in the situation where the need arises and you are unable to just take care of business and are forced to wait... when the moment comes where you are able to escale to the facilities, there is a mad rush. your more primal instincts begin to take control and suddenly, you are having trouble undoing you belt or zipper or whatever, but you are acutely aware of evert sound around you, ever molecule of air, you can see every crack and scratch on the floors or walls... sometime you cut it close... too close for comfort. sometimes you aren't so lucky... we have all had those moments. they aren't our proudest moments. they are secrets that we bury in our subconscious, or we try to force them from our memories as fast as possible...
those days suck.

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but somehow... despite knowing better... despite trying to be a better person... it is morbidly funny seeing someone else suffer the same indignity.

well, you feel bad... but it does make for a funny story later...

unless they didn't make it...

then it's sad...

or really, really funny...

depending on the person...

if that ever happens to me... i hope there aren't any witnesses... because other people would have too much fun with it...

it has been an interesting couple of weeks. first, it's probably been one of the most expensive couple of weeks we've had in a long time... out water heater crapped out and we had to get a new one... the surprise party, rock band, wii fit, a new phone, clothes... you know stuff. but if you told me that I had to do that all over again in order to have the memories from sunday, then I would do it again in a heartbeat. it's always nice to see how much people love you... you know that they love you, but to actually see it physically manifest itself - (as it did on sunday for me, and in retrospect, the last few months) is amazing. lorie, anna, kimmie, eric, rob, and ellen. the amount of work they put in for something as simple as a surprise party was a little ridiculous and appreciate more than they probably could know. the art board, the food, the t-shirts, the hats, the planning, and from throwing a fake surprise party, to going along with a fake fake party, to getting everything together for a real surprise party under my nose and many times (unbeknownst to me) with my help. especially lorie. I don't know if I should be proud or weary about her ability to lie to my face - though with the best intentions, of course. before this weekend, I probably would have told you that I thought I was pretty smart, pretty clever. after this weekend, I think I might be a lot slower than any previous estimation. but, even if I did figure it out (which I didn't) I don't think I would have had the heart to ruin the efforts and the planning and just the thoughts of those six people that did so much to give me such a beatiful and fun filled day. all for me? in my head, yes, but I'm pretty sure everyone else had fun too. so thanks to everyone that came, and especially thanks to lorie, kimmie, anna, eric, ellen, and rob. you guys are the best. I'm so happy to be blessed with my family and friends.

now if I could only get some sleep. ;-)

Im typing this entry from the instinct. $70 a month for 450 minutes and unlimited text, data, email, tv... seems pretty good, though i can't play the facebook apps... i can also use the gps too... i'm a little excited. i'm also getting the hang of the keyboard too, which is pretty slick. i'm liking it so far. time will tell.

I've heard, here and there, that people believe that they are punished immediately by God when they are doing something wrong.

It's not simply that a consequence of doing something wrong is that something bad happens to you, but that you are being punished.

not sure if that was clear, but in my mind it is clear that if you do something wrong, you deserve to be punished for it. not even speaking from a religious stand point but a mere cause and effect.

now, I've also heard, here and there, that people believe that they when they haven't been faithful that God punishes them because you were away so long and He's mad at you.

that's probably one of the dumbest things I've ever heard.

"I was going to confession, which I haven't been to in years, and I got hurt. So I didn't go, because God was telling me not to because He's mad at me."

what kind of stupid horse caca is that?

whatever.

so randomly... Divine Mercy Sunday. from what I've been told, if you are free from sin (having been to confession within a week of receiving Holy Communion on that Sunday) then you will be granted a plenary indulgence.

what was that?

plenary indulgence.

from what little I understand, and crudely put, an indulgence is more or less salvation because someone holy (like the Pope who is infallible) said so. back when they were building St. Peter's Basilica, they were handing out indulgences for money so they could build it... A few people had a problem with that, not in God's plan or whatever... not sure how that works really...

and I'm not sure what the rule is on that now a days...

and I'm not sure what I think about it just yet - given that I haven't really looked up much... but I'll go with whatever the Pope says...

k... I should go back to work...

How does raising the minimum wage help the economy?

It certainly doesn't guarantee more jobs. In fact, I would think that hinders employeers because there is less money, therefore a hiked minimum wage just causes employers to cuts jobs to pay for the people they can afford, or it causes businesses to go bankrupt.

there is a difference between looking like you are helping people and actually helping people. by raising the minimum wage, you appease what people think they need. what someone needs to teach them is what they truly need and what they need is to understand.

understand that short-term fixes won't get the job done. it's a marathon people, not a sprint. but elected government officials have little time (like consultants) and typically focus on getting their main objectives completed - because they have a relatively short amount of time before they have to campaign again to keep their job - which means selling out, asking for money, and making promises or owing favors which would be better to be not kept or not owed.

but 'people' in general are selfish. then again, 'people' in general are stupid. but that's just the cynical pessimist in me talking. my optomistic side thinks that if we tell people and get them to actually listen and understand, that we will all be in a better place.

but maybe I'm oversimplifying things.

How does raising taxes on the rich help the economy?
so there are a ton of corporate bigwigs that make an obscene amount of money. and suppose we tax them extra because we think they should be giving more back to the country. but they don't get additional say - unless you count the millions they throw at government officials, legal and legal-ish-ly, through loybbying, campaign contributions, etc, etc, etc. - in elections - they still have one vote, but it is their money that is going to the government... personally, I don't think the government handles money all that well, and I would rather hold on to my money where possible. for those people that do make a ton of money - I'm sure they know better what to do with it - beneficial or self-serving - the trick is to get them to use their money and knowledge of managing it and growing it and water so that help everyone else.

it's the getting them to help everyone else and people recognizing that they are helping is the trick. but once you shine a spotlight on good deeds, that spotlight can go right to the dirty deeds...

raising taxes might be a short-term "gain" but it ends up screwing the little guy down the road, because that rich guy - he's smart, devious, and ambition, and he has a lot of friends because he has a lot of money - so wouldn't you rather have him on your side? how do we get him on our side?

by raising taxes on the rich, isn't it like consolidating power in an elite few? isn't that the opposite of a democracy? also, since they are getting 'pinched' so to speak, that just motivates them to cut unecessary cost - and that trickles all the way down the line to the lowest rung... because they just hike minimum wages and they need to cut some 'fat'.

you want to talk about the economy... who do you think controls the economy?

I'm not an economics major - I'm not a government expert... but I have seen into business, and I've watched west wing a few times, and I stayed at a holiday in express... so someone please correct me if I'm way off base, tell me why. if it's not that simple, then tell me why?

there are 6 billion people on the planet. I'm sure there are enough people around to try and find the root causes to this, because everything, everything is connected.

or maybe I'm oversimplifying things.

I've been looking at the lyrics all around the net and I didn't find any that satisfied me with regards to correctness... so here is my take on Jurassic 5's Improvise:

Yo, it's like this when Allah says "Let it be light"
He also designated, poetical brothers with mics
For whoever had skills to possess the gift
Combinated with the flavor and it go like this,

2na Fish

The manphibian citizen, with the lesson plan
Cashier at the J5 concession stand,

Akil

The militant steel with the periphial
Telegraphic skill build up force field,

Mark 7even

Fundamentalist bringing my verbal gift
My style is packed quick like cocoa in Swiss Miss,

Zaakir

For the way my pen sticks to rhymes
'Cause I feel that, party people, it's about that time

And together, we'll show you how to improvise
Reminiscent of the Wild Style '75
'Cause it's the brothers on the mic occupyin' the drums
Takin' four MC's and make them sound like one

I be the spark from the cannon, blaze the outstandin'
Tug of war, with the poor, rich, and scandalous
Road runnin' bandit, race against advancement
Style winds 'cause storms when I perform

I'm a plot with giant robot, And stomp ya whole spot
Then peep ya whole crew, Da bunch of know nots
Dissect you from the inner then declare myself the winner
Once the style clears, you'll be frail like thinner

I'm 2na the Black, pure contractor
Attackin' your backdoor, you're trapped in my trash compactor
Move back, boy, smooth as velour, the trap door
It's causin' the capture for brothers who rap poor

Check the shellin', rock niggas redder than watermelon
The grief-stricken, rotated 20/20 vision
Rap felon, hottest brother wit bad spellin'
I pitch shift with unprecedented sharpness

Distributor, local street corner contributor
Word inhibitor, scientific pen positioner
Rhythm commissions DJs for real
He drives the cross fader like a cut mobile

We perpetrate no fake, no fraud, no phony
Jurassic masters of the ceremony
You came and saw right before your eyes
In fact the old school flavor has survived, like this

[instrumental]

And together, we show you how to improvise
Reminiscent of the Wild Style '75
'Cause it's the brothers on the mic occupyin' the drums
We takin' four MC's and make 'em sound like one

And together, we show you how to improvise
Reminiscent of the Wild Style '75
So whoever bought the tape bring your butt right back
'Cause you never in your life heard a cut like that

Hey, we flip fast phonographs 45 records smash
Hot weather forecast, it ain't nothin' they never had

Make a move, never lose, competition quick to choose
New styles, hot rhymes, guaranteed to blow your mind

Who is he? The subtle lip fanatic from Unity
Demonstratin' the ghetto diplomatic immunity

Well I'm the style stimulus, sound photosynthesis
Super with the sentences in the land of citrus

And together, we'll show you how to improvise
Reminiscent of the Wild Style '75
'Cause it's the brothers on the mic occupyin' the drums
Takin' four MC's and make them sound like one

And together, we'll show you how to improvise
Reminiscent of the Wild Style '75
'Cause it's the brothers on the mic in the place to be
It's the J U R A double S I C

It's been a long road, gettin from there to here...

a lot has changed in the almost 8 months since I've blogged... too much to recap... I'm sure other people have done so.

Even in my own eyes I know I've changed. reading through a lot of the blogs I posted (and didn't post) I've found that a lot of the anger and frustration that I felt are no longer there... only to replaced with different feelings - some similar, other vastly different.

I've since discovered web 2.0 - many aspects of which I like, many which I do not like. bring us together by keeping us apart. ironic, no?

I've come to terms with my life - and how I will choose to live it.

I've come to terms with my career - and how I will choose to handle it.

nothing is perfect, I don't think it ever will be - but I know where I want to be, because I know I'm not there...

but life isn't a sprint... it's a marathon. We can't have things right when we want them, if only to teach us that things attained easily are things easily forgotten. there is no cheat code or FAQ walk-through for life.

I'm pretty sure no one has it all figured out. because if they did, they would have probably boxed it, mass produced it, and sold it to the highest bidder.

I'd probably be in line to buy it if I was convinced...

I think I'll try to keep blogging again... I haven't been keeping up with anyone's blog... I'm sure that my links are hopelessly out of date.

the layout is probably dated as well...

but as with everything, there is only time to do so much... and I haven't been using my time as wisely as I would like.

I just have to remember that we weren't meant for this world... this world is not the end.

if I can keep that in mind and my focus on the things that really matter... everything will be alright in the end.

I will see my dreams come alive at last...
I will touch the sky...

I probably could have spent more time doing something useful instead of doing useless things this afternoon.

I was told to take my computer in.

so I did.

I was told it would take half a day.

I was like, "yeah right, whatever, it'll be done in two hours."

nope.

it has thus far taken the half of the day they predicted.

so much for being an optimist.

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on a brighter note, I believe lorie is coming home this weekend. HUZZAH! HUZZAY! BULLY!

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I was told that my australian accent sounds like a new york accent.

I was also told that my boston accent sounds like a new york accent.

one would think that I have a new york accent that I think sounds like whatever I think it sounds like. but I never tried to do a new york accent.

oh my gosh.

am I like one of those deluded fools on those reality tv competition shows!?

do I think I'm sooo funny only to go on live tv to be shown how completely not funny i am?!?!?

am I like the "choreographer" or the "singer" on "so you think you can dance" and "american idol" but from a misguided comedy/accent perspective?

the world is spinning.

all of a sudden, I'm seeing life much more clearly, and... and...

I...

uh...

I...

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no way.

I'll give you that my accents might suck. But "at least I have a 'lambert'"...

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"I feel like an angel baby, swaddled in a coccoon of cloud candy."

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and I think it's time to change the oil on this webpage... I'm thinking...

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that was it. I'm thinking.

I hate feeling wretched.

I feel that way sometimes.

not fun.

being scolded.

that makes me feel wretched.

disappointed looks.

feeling wretched.

seeing lorie upset.

wretched.

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the line in which I feel wretched is thin, almost invisible. this line exists between apathy, which is just past sadness and concern, and anger.

I don't like disapppoint people.

I don't like getting scolded.

when I get both, it really sucks.

the only thing that might be worse in my experience is getting both and it upsetting lorie.

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I'm over it.

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I got to the hotel, got upgraded to a one-bedroom sweet.

and then I ate a jr bacon cheeseburger.

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I just ate another.

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now, I am going to sit on the couch and think about working out.

because if I think about it, it's almost as if I'm doing it, right?

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I am going to stop this train of thought now. because I believe that if I make any more deep revelations, I might cause a shift in the paradigm of current intellectual thought.

I don't think people are ready for that shift...

just yet.

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don't worry, I will regale you with the exploits of my next meal and next day's activities.

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I know you are the end edge of your seat. you'd have to be... expecially if you made it this far into this blog.