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I like being right. so maybe I'll just be a pessimist. :-P

don't have the tablet today. so I'll have to type this one.

couldn't get online all day today. which means I was actually doing work. well, as much as I could do without being able to get online.

this means that I'll have to do stuff from the hotel tonight.

not in the mood.

stress. trying to remove that still. it's hard to do because stuff keeps happening. can't imagine having kids. actually, what I imagine is that you are constantly stressing about them.

I have set two impossible goals:

win the lottery.

become a supermodel.

"Money doesn't buy happiness... Do you live in America? It buys a jet ski. Try frowning on one of those. You can't." -Daniel Tosh

or I could go the other way.

absolute poverty and destitution.

Either way, I guess I really don't have to worry about money.

they both come with problems I guess.

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going to the gym.

fuck work.

you know those moments where you are completely and utterly thrilled about something?

the moments of victory or that sense of accomplishment?

have you ever looked around at the other people and wondered, "why the heck aren't you so excited?"

well, the obvious answer is that they are not going through the same thing you are... sure they can be excited for you because you are excited, but they will not feel what you are feeling because the experience is uniquely your own.

once in a while, you will get that guy who will put you down, because - from your perspective, he is a jerk.

every so often, you will put yourself down because you just do... no one likes disappointment, so if you keep yourself depressed, there really, you don't have too far to fall.

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I have often thought about other people's perspectives...

unfortunately for me, I have only done it on those occasions were I am not feeling selfish...

when I'm feeling selfish, I really don't give a hoot about other people...

[don't think at me like that - that's what selfish means... duh.]

I think, "what would make someone say something like that?" why would they tear you down so fast?

it's funny, because when you think about that - although happy outburts are usually acceptable public displays, to someone with a different set of life experiences can completely be offended by it...

since unhappy public displays are usually ignored or people frown upon them, when a person who has been exposed to a happy display, they feel that their happy display is intruding on their own feelings and that person speaks out...

I guess, proper etiquette demands polite society - which means that overly happy displays and the opposite are frowned upon in general.

but that would also include public displays of affection...

but it's all a cultural thing...

I say, if someone can be happy outloud, why can't someone be sad outload?

people are going to be annoyed either way, but because happy is more acceptable than sad, people allow the happy and piss on the sad...

I think we as a society are feelingists...

people need the range of emotion in order to be a complete person, because without the opposites, there is no comparison, and without comparison there is only expectation and that leads to disappointment, so eventually it will all come around...

the longer you stay on one side of the spectrum the harder it will hit you on the otherside.

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all that being said.

there is the struggle between wanting to do the right thing and being complacent.

because one is definitely easier than the other.

bored for a minute...

saw pam's survey...

decided to post it...

1) Using FOOD names, spell out your name
r-avioli y-ogurt a-sado n-ilaga

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? do the ones I sing about myself count?

3) What songs usually makes you cry? Sad songs... they say so much.

4) What songs make you happy? fun techno, 90's hip hop and rave, 80's pop, showtunes

5) What do you like to listen to before bed? cartoon network or late night talk shows

HEIGHT: 5'5"
HAIR COLOR: black
PIERCINGS: two - left ear, but have, as of late, been unoccupied
TATTOOS: no
COLOR PANTS YOU'RE WEARING: banana gray, with white pin-stripes
SHIRT YOU'RE WEARING: light gray mohair v-neck sweater, diagonal striped button up with french cuffs

LIP GLOSS FLAVOR? um... burt's bee's or blistex lip medex
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO? unwell

WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH? red bull
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE? freezing, with lots of snow everywhere
HOW ARE YOU? fine, how are you
DO YOU GET MOTION SICKNESS? not lately, but it depends on how long it's been since my last really bad hangover.
HAVE A BAD HABIT? scab picking
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS? yes
FAVORITE CONDITIONER: whatever lorie leaves in the shower
FAVORITE MAGAZINE: entertainment weekly

HAVE YOU EVER
BROKEN THE LAW: yes
RUN AWAY FROM HOME: never
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: does a bear shit in the woods?
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: yes
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD: yes
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yes
CHILDREN: next couple of years
BEEN IN LOVE: still going...
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: a few times
BEEN HURT: not really
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: none...

RANDOM
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: greenday - american idiot
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? graphite
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY? being with lorie, snorkeling off a tropical island coral reef
WHAT MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST? when everything is right and I have nothing to worry about for a while...
WHAT'S THE NEXT RECORD YOU'RE GONNA GET? depends on what's available on vinyl

WHEN/WHAT WAS THE LAST
TIME YOU CRIED? when I was hung over and puking in the shower (a few weeks ago)
TIME YOU GOT A REAL LETTER? written by a person that is not an invitation to a party? I think a year and a half ago...
YOU GOT AN E-MAIL: non-work, non-spam? last night.
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: headline news
MOVIE YOU SAW: mind hunters (blockbuster)

ok, so I found pre-cooked wrapped bacon.

I just noticed it in passing.

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OH - and they are selling magic singalongs at Sam's club now.

around $90 for about 300 songs.

I haven't looked too deeply at that either, but it was cool to be one of the few with those mics for a while.

the chips look different and they only seem to hold 50-100 songs per additional chip.

we aren't buying it because we have one already - and I don't think the karaoke fad is as big in the US as it is in asian...

we're not buying one because we already have one... but it looks like a tank compared to the new ones.

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eh.

what of it.

so yesterday, we completed a good portion of our Christmas shopping. During that same time, we also bought a new shower stand for our tub since the one we had previously was cheap and therefore rusted very fast. Hopefully this one will not corrode so easily.

funny thing though. as I was putting together the stand, I felt very, very, stressed. it was strange. I couldn't figure out what brought on this anxiety, but looking back I think it was some kind of post-traumatic stress triggered by the assembling of the shower stand (something akin to the west wing episode where josh heard the brass quartet in the lobby of the west wing and it triggered an anxiety attack attributed by the fact that he got shot - if you know what I mean, you know what I mean, if not - tough cookies)

in any case, I've been trying to analyze why something like that would make me stressed out? Fortunately for me, last night I had the sensory therapy for peace of mind breather and three vodka tonics on the plane... [free alcohol is nice, but it could be better - but I'm not one to look a gift horse in the mouth - as those who remember the all you can karaoke/drink in NYC a few years ago can attest - or rather, the next morning]

in any case, I have never been shot - paintballs and plastic bb's excluded. I don't seem to recall any situation which assembling a shower stand or the like caused me great trauma. yeah. drawing a blank.

whatever - I'm sure it'll suss itself out some day... there'll be a parade... 76 bloody trombones... long about a saturday night...

in the end, I hope the new stand doesn't rust... but I'll just continue to ignore the fact that it might rust... you know.. thinking everything is alright. Read more.

I just came back from meijer...

I was supposed to get 10 things.

I got 8 of them.

and I got 20 things that were not on the list.

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it probably cost me three times what I was expecting to spend.

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I'm so stupid.

I just lost $10 because I didn't bet the set and the river gave the dude a straight.

in all fairness... ten bucks is like nothing.

considering that a full tank of gas for me is like $50...

build more refineries and figure out how to transport and transfer hydrogen more safely and more efficiently... because these gas prices are shit.

oh well...

I think this is the first time I lost straight out in a while.

eh.

whatever.

7000 words/day for women, 2000 words/day for men...

you do realize what that means, right?

that means that men are supposed to remember more than three times the amount of stuff because women expect them to remember everything.

of course, men's minds don't work that way.

nope.

we remember stuff that is interesting - not that what women have to say isn't interesting - it's just that men don't find every wordthat comes out of their mouths all that important sometimes...

women, on the other hand, believe that every sentence that comes out of their mouths is super important. Although, in relation to everything else she has said, really, everything ends up at the same level or importance - which really is the level which catches most guys off gaurd even though we go through it every other day (some how, we just supress our bad memories in this area).

this level is known as "You-weren't-listening-I-told-you-last-week-I-already-told-you"

basically, unless you can remember every conversation you have ever had in your life, you will never, ever win an argument on this level.

why?

because they have the perfect defense: They say more, but you listen less, so you could very well not have been listening during the point in question equals you're screwed.

Women have it easy - because men don't say much, and when they do, they, for the most part, say what they mean.

really. there usually isn't any sub-text in the average male declarative statement.

men:
I'm hungry. I'm thristy. I need new socks/jeans/shirts because they shrunk/ripped/got stained

meaning: exactly that.

women:
I'm hungry. I'm thristy. I need new socks/jeans/shirts because they shrunk/ripped/got stained

meaning (any one of them): oh my gosh, I'm fat, but I want you to tell me I'm not. Oh my gosh, my skin is dry, and I want you to tell me that I'm better looking then that girl of whom I feel threatened. Oh, I need new clothes because this make my butt/face/hips look too fat/pale/wide.

of course I am generalizing.

which makes this very dangerous, because the devil is in the details.

which means there are a lot of devils.

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I never win the you weren't listening argument. Because women expect you to be psychic too.

so what they say, and what they are thinking are two different things...

but...

because you weren't listening, she can say that she said what she was thinking, when, really, what she said doesn't even come close to what she was thinking... and even though you already did what she said, that's not what she wanted, and now she remembers the whole thing the way that she thought and you're screwed because you don't remember exactly what was said.

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so yeah... I have a wife, two sisters, a mother, and a whole slew of female friends...

so I think that I'm better than average at listening.

really.

I am.

you just might not think so because I am expected to remember everything, so when I do remember (which is most of the time) I am not given any credit.

but one lapse, and all of a sudden I'm in the doghouse - regardless of anything I have done.

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no fair.

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not to mention, women will take each instance of whatever and store it in a little vault. this vault is airtight and is only opened when you have some kind of argument or discussion.

btw - any argument, no matter if you are right, becomes the guy's fault.

"you are mad at me? well, I'm mad at you"

and then it becomes all about her being mad at you and then the guy ends up apologizing.

what is that!?

how do they do that?

it happens...

every...

single...

time.

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any guy with a girl knows this on some level - if not, learn it.

FAST

because you will become a whipping boy in no time...

flat.

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[insert cracking whip noise here]

...The consumption of alcohol may make you think you are whispering
when you are not...

it also doesn't pay to drink a lot the night before a soccer game, although those that did and can play the next day are champs.

dehydration and all...

but I guess playing in the rain makes up for that... dehydration and all...

I mean, how can you be dehydrated if you are soaking wet?

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well... unless you are in an ocean or stranded on a salt water lake...

I guess that can do it too...

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so there are things that we have that I thought would be frivolous, but, because we use them all the time, they really are not...

then there are things that we have that I though would not be frivolous, but, because they are stored away in a box in the basement or collecting dust on a shelf, they really are...