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It would be fantastic if we could swap dreams the way businessmen swap business cards. When you met someone, you'd give them a copy of your favorite dream, which would be both a pleasant gift and an introduction to your personality, and they'd give you their.

I wish I knew what the insides of other peoples' minds looked like.

psylocke gets her wish...

It begins in the middle - they always begin in the middle...

I am in total blackness...

In total silence...

What has gone on prior to this, I don't know but there is a tense feeling in the air, an anxious feeling...

I am stressed... I am worried...

and then, all of a sudden, there is a flower in the distance. in a pool of light... a daisy or a tulip... usually a warm color - a light red or pink, and some times, yellow or white...

I hear a rumble. no, I feel a rumble, because I do not hear anything.

something, a lot of somethings, are rolling in the distance.

towards me?

no. I am above it.

I think I am floating.

there are tremendous logs. perfectly cylindrical, your stereotypical cut down tree - no branches, no leaves, just trunks of bark and wood. I can see the ground now. Dirt. it's brown.

they are all rolling towards this flower hundreds and hundreds of logs are rolling and tumbling over each other each racing toward the flower. I want to help, to protect the flower, but I am scared and I am nervous and I can't move and now I can actually hear all of the logs rolling and rumbling and there is this high pitch squeal piercing the air now and I still can't move and I can't turn away something is holding me back and I can see the dirt kicking up and the ground is shaking and the flower is being overwhelmed but none of the logs are hitting it they are seem to be going through the pool of light but I still feel anxious and nervous and then -

silence.

I am nowhere again.

The air is still tense, still anxious.

I think I am in water.

I am in the dark, but there is a light blue glow on everything - like a thin shadow of blue, but there is nothing around to cast a shadow. I don't know where the blue glow comes from.

there is a line above me. just a line, two dimensional - extending from a point off in the distance to a point off in the opposite distance, glowing with blue.

I have a purpose. to keep the line together.

somehow, in the two dimensions I see the line starting to come apart and I am trying to hold it together. I can't see my hands... but I can still feel myself trying to hold the line, to keep it together...
I am still struggling... I am still scared... the blue glow gets brighter and brighter and then...

I wake up...

...

Not at all my favorite dream, but one I remember...

in fact this is a recurring dream I have been having since I was a child...

and only when I'm sick...

and almost always accompanied by panic attacks...

I haven't had it in a few years, but when dreams come to mind, this is always on top...

For the most part, dreams are something I love, but I almost always forget them immediately after I wake up...
Especially if they are nice...
Maybe I should invest in a dream log of some sort...
for the nice dreams...

The dreams I remember are bad... I remember two dreams distinctly... and a handful vaguely...

I read once that we dream every night, but, since most people often forget the dream once they awaken, that dreams are there so we can forget.

Others speculate dreams will help us tap into the unknown potential of the human mind. the more we remember them, the more in touch with the mind we will become.

I don't hold with either... at least not totally.

Dreamers can find their way by moonlight and their only punishment is that they see the dawn before the rest of the world. - Oscar Wilde


p.s. I'm not a believer in Horoscopes and Astrology - but this was pretty interesting... almost too interesting... for me... my personality... perhaps it is sufficiently vague to fit in generically with many people. none the less, it is the dessert of the mind - as people read their trash gossip magazines, the occult is like my tabloid. I know it isn't real, and I don't for one second believe in it. But just because I know that you shouldn't eat fatty foods and too much sugar - I still do it, because I enjoy it.

Cancer
June 22- July 23

The constellation, Cancer, was said to have been created after a side-moving Crab attacked Heracles, the last great hero to be a plaything of the gods, as he battled the infamous, many-headed Hydra. The pincered crab clasped Heracles' foot, clinging tenaciously until Heracles crushed it. Of course, since the crab was sent by Hera, out of jealousy, to stop Heracles, she honored it for its devotion and set it among the stars. Although this is only part of a very long story about the intrigues of the Greek gods, the consensus is that the crab came to represent tenacity and devotion.

The choice of the Moon, as ruler of Cancer, may not have much to do with the Crab, although Moon-children are among the most devoted and tenacious natives of the zodiac. The Moon contributes instinct and responsiveness as it operates in the milieu of feelings.

Insofar as the Moon represents the reflected light of the Sun, it also signifies the capacity of Cancer natives to respond immediately to the other diverse individualities with which they come into contact.

Like the ever-changing Moon, Cancer is not the easiest of signs to understand or deal with. Emotional, self-protective, and moody, Cancer can be an enigma to even the most well-meaning souls. There are two distinctly different types. One is outgoing and enterprising - craving security, though seemingly self-assured. The other is timid and retiring.

A great deal will depend on the other energies associated with the personal horoscope. Regardless of the type, Cancer is maternal, protective and enabling. The Moon, which rules Cancer, is the symbol for motherhood, and even men of this sign tend to be sensitive, emotional and nurturing.

Like all water signs, Cancer is immensely creative. Since you place your greatest energies in your home and domestic relationships, chances are yours is a comfortable nest, where your chicks are encouraged to thrive and prosper, as long as it is under your protective wing. All you ask of the world is to be cherished and appreciated. When that happens, the Cancer personality is giving, kind, solicitous and sympathetic. Refuse to give a Cancer what is due, and suffer a moody, self-pitying, and unforgiving response. A happy Cancer epitomizes all that is tender and caring in a close relationship. A frustrated Cancer gives mothers a bad name. A Cancer's vices are her virtues carried to extreme - over-protectiveness, instability, and defensiveness.

Cancer shines in the business milieu because of a quiet tenacity that leads her to success. You tend to be an excellent judge of human nature, and have a gift for understanding what the public wants and needs. Your natural ability to save for a rainy day, and make the most out of the least can sometimes make the difference between success and failure. Accustomed to making sacrifices, you do not place excessive demands on the world, opting only for comfort, security, and an opportunity to be important to someone.

What people need to understand about you is that you are always limited by the sense of wholeness in which any reality must rest, and by your need to confirm your place at the center.

You may be stubborn, but you are not very predictable in the kind of willfulness you will adopt to get what you want. You speak out of a complete orientation within your own feelings, whether they are instinctive or rational. Your feelings are the lens through which the rest of your life is focused.

When you are hurt, and you can be hurt by things that seem trifling to others, you may forgive, but you seldom forget.

Cancer tends to look to the past for support. Deeply responsive to everything that has come before, both in personal terms and in terms of family history and cultural conditioning, you may find it difficult to let go of past grievances and injustices in order to deal with the present in the here and now. This is one of your biggest challenges.

As a partner Cancer is devoted, protective, and seeks emotional fulfillment. Although you may not be the best housekeeper in the world, tending to the needs of those you love is your highest priority. Sometimes there are strings attached. Recognition and a kind word from the person you love will be considered the highest form of compliment. An unsolicited gift or thoughtful gesture can have you smiling for days. Food and nourishment is also a particularly important factor for you. You are likely to be a wonderful cook, and feed everyone who comes in the door. However, you have a tendency to drown your own sorrows in food, and need to be vigilant about your diet.

While Cancer women are most happy in their comfortable, domestic field of operation, and usually deal appropriately with their conflicting feelings, Cancer men have a more complex cross to bear. Often, their lives are strongly influenced by their mothers. They may also experience intense and unique relationships with women, who sometimes create the greatest opportunities, and challenges, in their lives.

The chickens are coming home to roost, dear Cancer. Saturn is just beginning its journey through your personal domain, where it will remain for about two years. You may be facing your greatest challenges, or your most profound rewards. Expect your domestic life to take on higher importance, as your relationship with your family demands an even greater portion of your time.