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I'm pretty funny.

I am really.

I'm so funny that it annoys people.

of course, I could analyze that and come to the conclusion that I am merely annoying.

but that's not the case.

I'm sooooo funny that it annoys people how funny I am.

(ego talking - no other explanation - because I know I'm really not that funny)

I have developed a tough skin - it was needed. because if you dish it out, you need to be able to take it, which is also why I've tried to avaoid joking around in a way that could possibly make people feel bad.

"Oh, let me guess. Another box with a crank that I turn and turn and turn until... whoo... a clown pops out. Then you laugh, the kids laugh, the dog laughs, and I die a little more inside." -stewie griffin

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the bruce campbell commercial where he sings hungry like a wolf whilst playing the piano is AWESOME.

i love bruce campbell. but not more than friends.

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so a few things. I am telling everyone this because maybe someone will find me a job where I can get paid the same amount as I make now doing this, but believe it or not, I am excel expert.

I am. really.

I can do formulas cold.

pivot tables are a snap.

I know so many shortcuts it's ridiculous.

I'm so good that I almost put too much effort in my spreadsheets... because really, not every spreadsheet needs buttons to sort every column and you don't need macros for everything.

but sue me, I like coding.

which brings me to the fact that I've rediscovered how much I like coding. for the past few weeks, I've been coding pl/sql. I'm pretty good at it.

which brings me back to the fact that I am funny.

because only funny people like programming.

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i got drunk on wednesday.

no one is, really.

most of us get a good idea of what our faults are over time, either by making mistakes and examining them or by being told, not listening and then making mistakes and examining them.

There're many things I wish I didn't do, but would I have become a better person by not doing them? Would I have learned the same lessons? not sure about that. But I continue learning, where I get aggravated is when I (or others) repeat the same mistake - as lorie can attest, however, I do make many mistakes over and over - but that's different. I think.

maybe not.

I could say I regret my past decisions, telling people "I never meant to do those things to you" but really - I'm not so sure that I do regret. I wouldn't be where I am today - how do I know if one little change wouldn't change my life for the worse. It's all really moot anyway, because we can't change the past, so why continue to let it bother me? just accept that you need to adjust for the future and move on.

And so I have to say before I go that even though I don't regret my past decisions, I do apologize for them when I've hurt some one, be it accidentally or willfully. Another thing that I just want you to know is that I will continue to make mistakes, but we learn from them...

isn't it amazing how changes in life don't seem to happen gradually, but many times, instantly? Major paradigm shifts in your life open up the different facets to a person... highschool, college, significant others... I found a reason for me to change who I used to be during my college years - instead of the guy that was completely and utterly selfish and unfaithful (in many different ways) - I became...

um...

less selfish, and not unfaithful.

:-P

some people, they tend not to change, given that they don't have a reason to start over new... whether it be lack of focus or vision, ambition or luck, or just self-doubt or no one to give them that little boost of confidence.

I have been blessed that I have had many different people to kick me in the pants when I was down on myself, or full of myself rather.

and the reason is you


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yup, yes, yeah, yuppers, yea...

I have found over the course of years of chatting online for work and what-not that these tend to have different conntations though they mean basically the same thing.

Also, text seems to take on the tone of the current mood of the reader.

so "yeah" to you might be "yeah-whatever-you-are-a-total-loser" to someone else.

I personally always put myself on the receive side of any text I send when I deem it necessary to watch my tone of the message I am sending.

I will read and re-read and edit based on the tone I think I am sending and then try to anticipate the tone I think the reader might perceive.

I basically try not to use the negatives when possible. I also try to make it sound like I am asking for help instead of demanding something, unless I really do need to demand something. I also try to make sure that I sound appreciative without sound fake.

yup - informal only - can't really use this in a formal email. I find it to be the most innocuous and unoffending of the bunch. also good for closing off thoughs. something about how it snaps at the end. although, it use might sometimes pass you off as aloof or apathetic. but who cares right? yup.

yes - this is double edged. depending on the question, yes is or is not the appropriate response. Probably not used as often as you would think in formal messages, but if a succinct positive response is required, this is the only option. well. maybe 'true' works, but that doesn't always work. if the question has negative tone, then I feel that 'yeah' is more appropriate in informal settings, but one must becareful with 'yeah' because it can possibly piss people off. (see above) I've never found an occasion to use this to close. only because I feel a 'yes' needs to go along with some sort of explanation or further text. a solitary yes seems lonely.

yeah - this is double edged as well. you could be buddies or you can be a jerk. since tone in email and text and im are the hardest to purvey, yeah should only be used when you are most comfortable and when you don't have to worry about other people's feelings... which is arguably never, but you can still use yeah. yeah... I can use it with my friends. you can too I guess, and I think you can end thoughts with it. yeah.

all other iterations. whatever. yes, they can be useful, but almost exclusively in an informal setting. yeah, I don't think you can get away with using yuppers in a formal document. don't think so. yup.