Sunday, June 13, 2004


where does the time go...
posted @ 00:18 by ryan in [ A journey into the mind... ]

there is something to be said about being so busy that you do not have time to worry about anything...

you keep working and working on something, whether it be your house, your job, your family, or whatever... the thing is that there is always something to keep you occupied...

then you get those moments where you do not have to actually do anything at that moment or block of time and then you can think about the stuff that you need to do or worry about the stuff that you tend to worry about...

that is no fun...

worrying.

so then you can also take that time to just relax and let you mind just turn off and recharge.

we all need that.

I know I did.

but the second I become lucid I start to worry.

about the wedding.

about the house.

about work.

about bills.

about life.

I look to the Lord for comfort, because there is not always someone else around to give it to me. This is a good thing. I am actualy glad I have Him to turn to because without Him I would be so far lost I would be gonig though my quarter life crisis.

Everyone is busy.

Everyone has their own problems.

I just wish I could help.

I just wish I could understand more.

... ... ...

I am actually buzzing right now.

I had a couple of drinks with my boy, Kris, because we just felt like going to a bar for a few drinks.

so I am just typing, literally, the first things that pop into my head.

I should actually do that more.

go have drinks with friends...

go to the bar or to restaurant or something and just sit for an hour or so and talk...

even a coffee house.

and if you feel like having a drink with someone, keep me in mind, because if I have the time, I am more than willing to give it to you...

like I said before, I would do something for someone else before I actually do something for myself (unless I am feeling tired or lazy or stressed or selfish or whatever)

I do not like just going to work and then going home and not doing anything.

I need to keep my mind busy.

I need to keep my body busy.

I need to get silverware because I am running out of plastic spoons and forks - (I have plenty of knives because I hardley use them - actually at one point i was down to just knives and I used them like chopsticks. Be careful if you do that because you can cut yourself with the plastic serrated edge.)

my hands feel kind of numb.

and I need to find the guest list.

good night!