Watchers...
The Immortals had them, the Slayers had them...
My personalilty being what it is, I do not think that I could live merely on observing others and recording their exploits.
I would much rather be doing something rather than just watching, even if my exploits are not recorded by others (but it is still a little nice to know that other people do know things you want them to know - but that is just me)...
I remember hearing a story once about this person whose car went into a river or something and the news van beat the police/fire department and what not there and all they did was capture the whole incident without even helping simply because they were supposed to report the news and not get involved, or something stupid like that...
I only heard of it though, so I do not know if it is actually true...
and I am too lazy to look it up.
From facing your failure, facing your loneliness
Facing the fact you live a lie
Yes, you live a lie -- tell you why
You're always preaching not to be numb
When that's how you thrive
You pretend to create and observe
When you really detach from feeling alive
I like to capture events, but many times when I am capturing an event I find that I would rather be a part of that event.
I want to be the one in the picture, on the screen...
[show-off]
no, not because I want to show off, but because doing something is more fun than watching it.
I remember reading once that we (or maybe just men) like to be physically active and be out doing things, but when the body cannot live up to the physical aspect of activity, the mind settles for merely watching it.
and then, if you get lazy enough, then you allow yourself to just watch and not do.
I would rather dance than watch someone dance... and if I am watching I am trying to learn something...
I would rather sing than watch someone sing, but also like to appreciate those whose voices are infinitely superior to mine... [which is pretty much anyone that can hold a tune]
but I would rather live for someone than to live for just myself...
living for yourself is nice and all of that, but I tend to find that if I am not doing something for someone else that I think that I am too good for myself to be doing things for myself...
does that make sense?
whatever.
I just like seeing other people happy, because that make me happy... but then, I am happy with other people, so I hope that my being happy will help other people be happy...
I find though that my happy might be a little to intense for some and tends to annoy others...
the opposite of war isn't peace, it's creation... viva la vie boheme
I want to be behind and in front of the camera at the same time...
I want to record and accomplish...
but there is not enough time in the day.
and I still have to pay for it all somehow.
... ... ...
I would also like to make sense.
