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like I said before... I am where I am, because that is where I am supposed to be.

maybe you think you need to be somwhere, but the simple fact is, you are not there, so the truth is, you are not supposed to be there.

I am leaving Midland today...

seven and a half years ago, I first came to Midland as a bright-eyed, bushy-tailed co-op for the company which is now my current client...

Five years ago, I thought I was leaving Midland and never coming back, because I thought I would have no reason...

two and a half years ago, I returned for a day for a meeting with the client...

two and a half months ago, I returned as a member of a new team with the same client...

if I ever come back in the future, perhaps they will have better shopping in the mall... but even after five years, the mall has left much for want...

whatever...

there was a reason that I was brought back to Midland... but regardless of what it was, I really do not want to live here. I am pretty sure that was not the reason I was pulled back here, because I knew that five years ago...

maybe it was not for me. I sometimes forget that when things happen to me, things that are not of my choosing, that they are not necessarily meant for me, as for another.Whatever happens to me, it is something that I am able to handle, and therefore, if my life serves as an example or as an opportunity for others, then so be it.

you should find ways to serve others...

sometimes, those ways find you.

but this could very well just be rhetoric, because right now my mind is really just trying to handle the next five months without exploding...

looking forward to beginning my life with my love...
looking forward to making a home...
looking forward to everything...

but that happens after all of the planning is done...

so can we please be done already?

things are piling up on top of everything, like my cousin vinny...

and I am starting to forget things...

I am starting to think about everything that I need to be doing over the next five months, and it is stressing me out.

I really should stop, and do what I am supposed to be doing right now...

... ... ...

do you know how hard that is for me sometimes?

of course not.

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