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when I was in college... prior to doing anything that resembled work, I would find every and all excuses to avoid doing it... I would check e-mail for the nth time, IRC, C&C or Roguespear my time away, and then I would clean my dorm room... and vacuum everything...

ha... if I had homework right now, I would probably have a clean bedroom...

the whole point being that I cannot study in a room that is messy, because it draws my attention to things that are ultimately more fun... well, maybe the whole point being that I would rather do anything else than study... even to the point of cleaning... but the whole distracted by other things in the room thing is also a big thing...

yes, I was (and probably still am) the ultimate definition of a slacker... of course, I have not a clue why I have an aversion to work...

no, I do know why... the whole making a mountain out of a mole hill syndrome... I would see the work and then get overwhelmed by it and give up.

that pretty much amounts much of my philosophy in life... if you cannot do it in one shot, then do not do it...

a pretty shitty philosophy in practice... you know, now that I actually think about it...

so I should change...

except that I have work to do right now, and for some reason, I am avoiding doing it...

I have a problem.

not a problem that can be solved with a simple answer and proof... but the kind that requires thought and effort and a few weeks, if not months...

I find that I make better use of my time when I have less of it - which leads me to complaining about not having enought time to do anything... but it is one of those complaints where I know I really do not care, but it is just to announce that I am, oh, so busy...

how funny.

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I really could use a vacuum right now though... my cubicle definitely needs it... with all the white noise generators in the office, I really doubt anyone would hear me vacuuming... and my truck... although I really would nead a steam vacuum to get the crud form the past winter out of my floor mats...

vacuuming is very therapeutic for me. what is it about vacuuming that I like so much? perhaps it is the instant gratification of seeing the lint and what not magically lifted from the carpet... the removal of dust from the random surface... I do remember watching my father vacuum the family room when I was two or three... with the old school kirby... how neat...

all I know is that I would rather vacuum than wash dishes... well, actually, I know much more than that, but I loathe dishwashing... I am also one of the few than would suffer the dishwasher rather than using it as a drying rack... apparently dishwashers save on water consumption to all you freaky hand-dishwashing people...

but to really, really set my mind at ease... give me a chunk of time and a video game and let me beat it inside and out... I will be thoroughly saited and able to focus on pretty much whatever task I am handed shortly thereafter... but if I must be interrupted from my game prior to its completion, I can guarantee that I will be quite useless for a good quarter of an hour...

games... or a good series... like alias... or neon genesis... or smallville... or trigun... or buffy... or cowboy bebop...

whatever.

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someone please toss me compass and a map...

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this whole not having an internet connection at night thing is really starting to bug me... that and I forgot to bring books to read...

I feel very cut off in Midland... and the cable sucks because I do not get movie channels or the WB...

but I am getting well versed in my Stargate SG-1, West Wing, and Law and Order...

I could write I thesis on it...

well...

almost.