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with icy cold breath
she slaps me across the face.
now, where is my scarf?

when do you reach your peak physical condition? I would think for most people that it is end of high-school beginning of college... This could possibly stretch to mid-20's, but with the number of injuries I've seen from those in the mid-20's (at least in my circle of friends) I would think that early 20's is it...

how tragic is that? considering that average life expectancy in the US is almost 80 years... you will live 3/4 of your life in some kind of physical decline..

the winters seem much colder, much harder, now... I bundle up, I wear hats and scarves - not because it is "cool" but because I enjoy comfort much more than I enjoy discomfort. (in fact, the only discomfort I can tolerate is when it is the intentional discomfort I would cause others... assuming I would cause anyone discomfort for some reason or another)

what was I thinking as a child?

do children generate more body heat?
because I don't remember the cold being so cold when I was younger...

I would run around outside with my jacket wide open and with no hat upon my head... I do remember the really, really cold days where I would bundle up, but the purpose of that was to play around in the snow and build forts and snowmen and throw snowballs at siblings and friends.

yesterday, it was 8 degrees F

that is 24 degrees F below freezing.

and then throw in the wind chill... or maybe that was including the wind chill....

today, not so bad...

whatever...

I once heard that "cold" is a state of mind, and "freezing" is a condition.well, now I must start to employ the use of technology to help me.

technologically advanced attire and gear mixed with performance enhancing drinks will get me through this winter.

but dammit...

duofolds can be a little pricey and hot chocolate makes me sleepy...

but aren't they delightful?

how does pocket two's call two raises in front of him?

apparently, a set beats two pair...

CRAP.

is it because you start to forget that He is the one that blesses you?

is it because you start to take for granted that you have is only because He allows it?

what about what you don't have?

is it because He doesn't allow it?

in the "Our Father" we pray, "Your will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven"

does this mean that His will isn't being done? Yes. I would think that is possible, given that we have free will to make our own decisions. Every time we have chosen not to follow Christ, His will is not being done...

Is it so bad? Having to follow Christ? I mean, think about what you have to give up... think about what you have to do?

"On Earth as it is in Heaven"

Heaven...
heaven oh heaven can't you help me...
I'm down on my knees please help me

do good deeds for their sake alone, and not because good works will get you into heaven...

how hard is it to separate doing what's right and doing what is right only because you are supposed to do what's right...

I can guess that sometimes it's obvious, but sometimes that decision is damn hard... one would think that what is right is obvious and that one would do what is right because it is what is right, but then those that do what is right and expect a reward really haven't done anyone any service... well... except for what they did because they were doing what they thought was right and did it only because they expected something in return...

resigning to do what is right without reward is truly a heroic thing, I think, because deep down you know that you are doing it because it is right and not because you want something from it...

recognition...
reward...
quid pro quo...

.Be careful not to do your .acts of righteousness. before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven." Matthew 6:1


"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" Matthew 6:25-27

so, now what?

what is there for me but to live...

do the best I can and focus on what is important...

I know what that is...

so what too me so long?

beats me...

...with the blink of an eye, you'll finally see the light.

did you know that back in the day there was such a thing as a half-penny?

I would sing that "Christmas is coming and the goose is getting fat song" and I would always sing "hay-penny" because that's how I learned it...

revisiting the song, the correct lyric is ha' penny, which I assume is half-penny...

if you haven't got a penny, a ha' penny will do...
if you haven't got a ha' penny, then God bless you!

anyhow, I guess not that many people know the song... I thought it was like "row, row, row your boat"

although, now that I think about it, I think that "Row, row, row your boat" is about the Matrix, conceived hundreds of years before the faintest conception of the Matrix...

whatever... this site will be renovated and I am in the process right now - although all of the changes are currently offline...

I'll update everything, assuming all goes well, by the new year...

but that's a big assumption...

craps, anyone?

subcutaneous adipose tissue....

works just was well as "fat" although the moment of confusion and look of incredulity is well worth the letter substituion...

I am not playing soccer right now, and I am getting spoiled with the amount of driving I do not have to do. Also, with the coming and going of Thanksgiving and the glorious and plentiful feasts prepared by my lovely wife - not to mention all of the junk I consume - there are many contributing factors.

Yes, I am getting fat, or sat rather...

the human body requires a certain balance of fat, glucose, and protein (protein, by the way, is another word that can join the ranks of weird, either, and neither, all of which defy the mnemonic device "'i' before 'e', except after 'c', or when sounded like 'a' as in neighbor and weigh") along with vitamins and minerals... and to keep the pounds off you need to burn as many calories as you ingest, otherwise your body stores any unused calories as fat... anyhow, it takes less calories for your body to turn fat into fat, and since I have been consuming a lot more fat and doing far less exercise, my body has been taking the easier route.

So lorie and I have been looking, seriously but somewhat half-heartedly, for an elliptical for my sister to buy for us with our money... It is far too cold for me to run outside and it is too far a drive for me to play indoor soccer on the east side... at least for now.

I plan to stop eating.

I am no longer hungry.

of course, my lack of appetite is directly attributed to the fact that I just polished off two kit-kat bars...

in any case... no one likes a quitter and quitters never win... (with that philosophy, it's amazing I quit smoking)

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I may very well run today...

to cold stone...

for a quart...

:-P

It just dawned on me! This scroll of Broken Sword's isn't about sword technique but about swordsmanship's ultimate ideal. Swordsmanship's first achievement is the unity of man and sword. Once this unity is attained, even a blade of grass can be a weapon. The second achievement is when the sword exists in one's heart when absent from one's hand. One can strike an enemy at 100 paces, even with bare hands. Swordsmanship's ultimate achievement is the absence of the sword in both hand and heart. The swordsman is at peace with the rest of the world. He vows not to kill and to bring peace to mankind.

~King of Qin, Ying xiong [Hero]

You remember when I said how I was gonna explain about life, buddy? Well the thing about life is, it gets weird. People are always talking ya about truth. Everybody always knows what the truth is, like it was toilet paper or somethin', and they got a supply in the closet. But what you learn, as you get older, is there ain't no truth. All there is is bullshit, pardon my vulgarity here. Layers of it. One layer of bullshit on top of another. And what you do in life like when you get older is, you pick the layer of bullshit that you prefer and that's your bullshit, so to speak.

~Bernard LePlante, Hero

what is your layer...

there has got to be a layer that isn't bullshit, right? Well, I guess if you have true faith... [I feel so extraordinary... Something's got a hold on me...]

if not, then, I would assume that the layer you choose is your best bet...

anyhow, things have been too busy lately. with what have we been busy?

good question. I don't know.

there are just a blur of events, and memories are better remembered when shared with those who experienced them, or maybe even those who would have liked to experience them.

maybe sharing memories allows you to imagine that you had those same memories, then you can feel like you've been there and thus fulfill your life through the description of others...

nah...

what makes for a fulfilling life?

what is life...

life is interaction. I would guess the meaning of life, well, human life, is to love...

and perhaps not necessarily to be loved in return...

but one would hope, wouldn't one? [although there is One that will love, even if we don't love back]

anyhow...

I'm going to drown out my thoughts in the last episode of "Smallville" that I Tivoed...

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whoa...