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it's been forever since I blogged. Almost a month!! I really don't know why..it's not
like I've been busy or anything like that...so much stuff has happened since then...we had a get together
at my place in kzoo which was a lot of fun...way too much food was made (as usual) with my favorite
cooking buddy (that would be Anna) and it was nice to be with all of my friends...what else...Thanksgiving
was nice...ate lots of food again and just hung out with my family. I went to Galyan's on that Friday with
Ryan, Vince, and Mary...that store is just amazing....I absolutely love it!! Ryan got an awesome weight
set and bench...all we need now is an elliptical and a pilates machine thing and our fitness room will be
set for when we finally get a house...wow!! That's amazing...kinda scary and exciting thinking about all
that grownup stuff...like houses and weddings and stuff like that...more exciting than scary though...

Speaking of weddings...I'm in the twins (Hyun's) wedding this coming May...I'm not even excited about
it...is that bad? I feel that I should be excited and that it should feel "right" (but it doesn't)...I
mean, I wouldn't have gotten together with Ryan if it wasn't for them...or would I? Does that make me a
bad person? Because sometimes I feel that I am...and I try to be a good person...I'm usually open-minded
and everything like that...but then how far do you go in terms of trying to "repay" someone for something
that they did for you? (this all goes back to the meeting Ryan thing) I don't want to seem like I'll only
do things for someone if they do something for me...I'm there for my friends regardless any time of the
day...but what about those that aren't your "real" friends? The twins bring out something in me that I
really don't like and I guess I didn't realize it until Ryan mentioned it to me...I wish there was
something I can do about it...it's so irritating....it's like this competition between us...like who is
better that who...drives me nuts...I don't feel like that with anyone else...usually I'm really happy for
them....I think that's what drives me nuts....what to do? hmmm.... On the other hand...one of my boys is
getting married this September and I am ecstatic about that...I'm so happy for him and I know that they'll
be really happy....this is definitely one of the few weddings that I've been to that I am really, really
excited about...and he asked me to be his bridesmaid!!! How amazing is that? Every time I talk to him,
he's so happy and excited...I've never heard him be this excited in the last 6 1/2 years that I've known
him...and then I think to myself, this is how it should be...you should be this happy when you get
married...it's what everyone should hold out for...never sell yourself short....I think that's one of the
most important things in life...don't ever settle...that's my little two cents for today